Sad Panda

9 11 2011

This is a post I wrote back in August, I wanted to publish it for my memories…

My boss told me 2 1/2 weeks ago he was leaving the Academy. Talk about a gut punch. I cried the entire day after he told me… the week after was hard because everyone was like OH NO DON IS LEAVING ARE YOU OKAY?? No motherfucker, I am NOT okay. Stop asking me if I’ll be okay!! A loss is a loss, and I am grieving.

I don’t think people understand how awesome of a boss Don has been. I know I gush about him constantly, and it isn’t because I’m a kiss up…he has been more than a boss. He’s been a mentor the past 3 1/2 years, a total polar opposite of my previous boss (aka Satan). He never scolded me for messing up, he only asked that I don’t make the same mistake twice. He nutures his employees to be their own boss and to be proud of what they do. I’ve never had a boss like that, the past I have felt like all my bosses held me back and would micromanage, not thinking I was capable of doing my job. And look at me 3 years later, I am a kick ass assistant because he let me be me and do my job, with the help of his guidance when I needed it. He knew the potential I had, and he let it out. After 10 years of working as an assistant, I was scared I’d never find a boss like this.

I feel like a lame ass because I am so upset. I was okay last week, but when I came in this morning to his packed up office, I got upset. All day today people have been like “ohh Rachael are you okay??” #@)(*$)@($*# Now that he just took everything out to his car, it hit me and I started to cry again. To me, this is a sign of weakness…I have never been able to control this, and I hate it. I feel like I should be professional about this. I feel bad about chastising someone else for being upset over their boss, but their boss is STILL HERE!! They just moved departments. I guess a loss is a loss, but it’s not the same.

On a happier note, I think he will love his going away gift. I ordered him a Lamb Chop puppet:

The back story behind this is Don calls me a lamb chop when he wants something lol. “Rach, would you be a lamb chop and get me a coffee??” I love it honestly, and I think he’ll get a kick out of this. The puppet also talks, just like my yappy self.

I also wrote him a letter and tucked it into the present, separate from the card I got him, so it’s kind of a double whammy because I tend to write things that make people cry…not in a bad way, I’m just good at expressing myself in written word.

Don,

It’s difficult to know where to start, you have been not only an amazing and supportive boss, but a mentor I have looked up to since I started at the Academy. You have made such an impact on my life, not only professionally, but in my personal life as well. You have given me a perspective on things I never thought I would have. You’ve helped me look beyond petty issues and see the bigger picture, which is a challenge I have battled with. I am happy to say that because of you, I struggle less and less each day with this and hope that what I’ve learned from you will influence others that I work with. The Academy is a successful and sustaining business thanks to your guidance. I could go on and on about how awesome you are, pages I tell you!

I am jealous that LA has stolen you away from me and the Academy, but I know that this is an incredible opportunity for you, so of course I am extremely happy for you. LA is so lucky to be getting you on their team, and knowing we will continue to work together beyond the Academy is a comfort, even if you aren’t sitting next to me. I have no excuse to avoid southern California anymore, and I look forward to seeing you at the end of September!

I hope he knows how much he has changed many lives of people here in San Francisco, he is an inspiration and a person I know I will be friends with until the day I die!